I thought it'd be nice to sit down and reflect for a while.

After reading through my whole blog archives from january to november, i thought it would be nice to sit down and think about the past year, even though it isn't completely over yet. I guess it's really interesting to look at myself, my thoughts this past year and then look at things as they are right now.

The times i whined about o levels and how i was never gonna make it. The tension i imagined there would be in the exam hall which never really was.

Looking at my resolutions for the year, things i hoped i do and things that i failed to do in the end.

Looking at how i used to view certain issues; after having seen (more or less) the full picture now, i now know how right or wrong i was.

Realising how immature i was, harbouring hatred over the slightest issues, or for no reason at all really, except that i was sore and maybe hurt. Then laughing at how all of it faded away so quickly. I guess it's like "heat of the moment" stuff that really looks so stupid after it's all over.

Looking back at tough times and how i got through it all.

This year has been a draining one to say the least. Emotionally (more so than any year before), mentally and physically. But looking back i would gladly go through all of it again.

The year really did fly by, and now there's only one month left. Who knows what's going to happen.

Seeing people change is always "interesting", for lack of a better word. But it becomes so different when the person you're watching is yourself.

Somewhere only we know.

Don't tell me.

What if, what if this is it.

The holidays have been surprisingly hectic and tiring.

But i'm loving it :)

Dig

I'm a dumbass, aren't i? Blockhead. I know.

I don't know how long more i can live with this for.

Please don't run too fast.

I once met a girl named Kim, and I fell in love. I pursued her with my love and pursued her with my love until I felt my love had captured her heart. So I asked her to be my wife, and she said no. I was unrelenting and asked her again, pursuing her with my love, and I pursued her with my love until she said yes.

I did not send my brother, nor did I send a friend, for in issues of love you must go yourself. 

This is the story of God; he pursued you with his love and you have perhaps not said yes. And even if you reject his love, he pursues you ever still. It was not enough to send an angel or a prophet or any other, for in issues of love, you must go yourself. And so God has come.

This is the story of Jesus, that God has walked among us and he pursues us with his love. He is very familiar with rejection but is undeterred. And he is here even now, still pursuing you with his love.