Star

Just now, as i sat down under the stars (or rather, the lack of), a million scattered thoughts flowed into my mind. I, being timo, am unable to express them in words. Therefore, i compress all my doubts, joys, sorrows and anger into this.

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This little asterisk contains all my thoughts. Read it carefully, you might actually find something.






SISTER, IF YOU STILL READ THIS SPACE, THANKS FOR THE STRUDEL :) AND THE CARD

I really appreciate the thought, more than anything else.

Bartley Christian Church

Some cheebyes that i know, got no EQ at all. Seriously damn immature.

Just fuck off and die, seriously.

Why go to church if the people there are worse off than the people from school? Ironic much? Hypocrites, just hypocrites.

It's no wonder so many people are leaving. The church fails to serve it's purpose.

When "christians" give you more problems than solutions, when fellowship is literally non-existent, i really do wonder why i still go. I mean, what's a church for?

No, what am i saying? I don't go to church? I go to frontline youth. Go figure.

Youth are screwed up, aren't they?

You must probably be thinking right now, 'What a hypocrite! He's just like the rest of them"

Yeah, i am. I don't deny it.

I'm a hypocrite. A "christian". Immature bastard.

But at least i don't make myself appear all righteous.

I am so fickle sometimes.

Bittersweet

I've never been one to follow trends. To go with what's popular. To like what everyone else likes.

Be it a musician, a dressing style, or a brand name, the fact that everyone likes something or someone has always turned me off to it.

And this time is no different. I'd rather be seen as nothing, to be nobody than to be looked upon as one in a many.

For the millionth time,

This is not who i am.

2010年5月27日

Mock exams - Frisbee - LAN - Study - Dinner - Study - Tauhuay - Home

I'm starting to become like one of those people that blogs by listing out what they've done that day. Oh well.

GG dota quite fun leh.

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Yeah, i've never believed in that too, but given the circumstances, nothing makes sense no matter what angle i try and see it from.

I don't know what to believe in any more.

God damn it.

Just die already. I wouldn't be able to take this much longer. I hope you fucking burn in hell.

No, who am i kidding. I'm the one that should be burning.

Something more

School - Frisbee - Eat - More frisbee - Night study - Dinner - Night study - Prata house - Home

It's pretty much the same thing everyday.

But i love it :)





Ps. Thank you :)

FTW

MID YEAR RESULTS ARE ALL BACK :D

I shall list them here cause i'm quite proud of myself. From best to worst,

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A Math - 81% (A1)
E Math - 78% (A1)
Full History - 76% (A1)
Chemistry - 64% (B4)
Chinese - 64% (B4)
SS Lit - 62% (B4)
English - 61% (B4)
Physics - 60% (B4)

L1R5 - 15pts
Avg - 68.3%
MSG - 2.88
Class Position - 4th

As you can see, it's really just separated into two categories - The A1's and the B4's. =/

My Chinese beat my English. 真正的华人。

Super disappointed in my SS Lit =/

Surprised like shit that i'm 4th.

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Ultimate frisbee yesterday. Then went to mug. Then home. Ran at night.

Frisbee today. Then slacked around. Then more frisbee. Then night study in school. Then home. Ran at night.

I've found new meaning in life.



"Wtf then you can just go kiss the plant"

(It rhymes)

Do you hear my silent plea?

It's as if i'm falling down on my knees.

A side i've never seen,

and i never wanna see;

Expose a different side of me.

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For the first time in my life, i did not miss 11:11

I feel so useless.

Chinese post no.1

博客好！ 死期快到了。我们只有两个星期到华文 "O" 水准考试。所以，我就决定尽力多用华语。（我的华语并不通顺，请原谅)

虽然母亲节以经是一个星期前的事了，在这里写一些有关母亲节的东西，应该还不太迟吧？（这句子看起来好像有点不对）

这是我华文补习老师给我的。读一读吧，看你能在其中找到自己的影子。

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当你1岁的时候，她喂你吃奶并给你洗澡，而作为报答，你整晚哭着。

当你3岁的时候，她怜爱的为你做菜，而作为报答，你把一盘他做的菜扔在地上。

当你4岁的时候，她为你买了彩色笔，而作为报答，你用它涂了满墙。

当你5岁的时候，她为你买了既漂亮又贵的衣服，而作为报答，你穿着它到泥土里玩耍。

当你7岁的时候，她她给你买了球，而作为报答，你用球打破了邻居的玻璃。

当你9岁的时候，她付了很多钱给你学钢琴，而作为报答，你并不去练习。

当你11岁的时候，她陪你还有你的朋友们去看电影，而作为报答，你让她坐另一排去。

当你13岁的时候，她建议你去把头发剪了，而你说他不懂什么是现在的时髦发型。

当你14岁的时候， 她付了你一个月的夏令宫费用，而你却整一个月没有打一次电话给她。

当你15岁的时候， 她下班回家想拥抱你一下，而作为报答，你转身进屋把门锁上。

当你17岁的时候， 她在等一个重要的电话，而你抱着电话和你的朋友聊了一晚上。

当你18岁的时候，她为你高中毕业感动得流下眼泪，而你跟朋友在聚会到天亮。

当你19岁的时候， 她付了你的大学费又送你到学校，你却要就她在远点下车，怕同学看见取笑你。

当你20岁的时候，她问你“你整天去哪“，而你回答：我不想像你一样。

当你23岁的时候，她给你买家具摆放在你的新家，而你对朋友说她买的家具真老土。

当你30岁的时候，她对怎样照顾小孩提出劝告，而你对她说：“妈，时代不同了。”

当你40岁的时候，她给你打电话，说亲戚过生日，而你回答：“妈我很忙没时间。”

当你50岁的时候， 她长得病，需要你的看护，而你却在家读一本关于父母在孩子家寄生的书。

终于有一天，她去世了。。。。你想起了所有从来没做过的事，它们象榔头痛击着你的心。

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哇。。。。我华语真的很差。这次考试死定了 =/

The Ides of May

Today, uh yesterday rather, was rather uhm. Eventful. (This is one of those what i did today posts)

Had our last paper in the morning. Physics mcq!(Which i effed up really badly). Following which 421 went to play touch rugby on the track. (PS. I CAN FINALLY DO A FULL ROCKET). Then went off the plaza sing. After breakfast/lunch at kfc(ugh), fooled around abit then went to watch IPMANTWO.

BESTMOVIEEVERWTF. Seriously. But ok moving on.

The big group split up later and some went to play lan while we went to play pool. Thinking that the window over looking the street at the pool place was a one way mirror, we did all sorts of shit to mock the people outside, only to realise later that it was just a glass tinted dark. FML.

Went to eat dinner. Everyone on the table except me was playing some shit iphone game. FML x2.

Then the rest went off to mundy's house, stayed behind to meet the yf people for another movie. While waiting, bumped into rain shortly after hearing from marcus that she was also in ps. Bought Ipman 1 dvd! Ate dinner, played lan then watched iron man 2 (Nowhere near as good at ipman)

(I think) we missed the last train home. So took but. Got off at thomson and walked home from there cause i felt like it again. Love the feeling of walking along the empty roads and streets late at night.

Got home at 1. I am tired.



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On second thought, what are the odds?

It's better not to think too much.

ugh

It's cold. So cold.

Push me back (One of those days)

Looking back does make me realise, how for everything has just gone downhill since then. Really, everything.

I could quote what you said to me half a year ago, and put it in context now. Oh, how ironic. But i guess, "that's just life", is it not? I refuse to accept that, though it's not like i have a choice anyway. I've already been beaten down.

Looks like after all this time, i still find myself unable to let go of the past. Today isn't how i imagined it to be.

(Y)

(Y) x423570937698576093




Once Stalin received a delegation of workers from the Urals. When the workers left, Stalin looked around for his pipe but did not see it. He called the Chairman of the KGB Lavrentiy Beria and said, "Lavrentiy Pavlovich, my pipe disappeared after the visit of those workers."

"Yes, Yosif Vissarionovich, I'll immediately take proper measures."

Ten minutes later, Stalin pulled out a drawer in his desk and saw his pipe. He struck a match, puffed out a ring of smoke, and dialed Beria's number.

"Lavrentiy Pavlovich, my pipe's been found."

"What a pity," Beria said. "All of them have already confessed."

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Riddle: What is it, four legs, forty teeth? Answer: alligator.

What is it, forty legs, four teeth? Answer: Brezhnev's Politburo.





Communist jokes +1

F.

Truth be told,

Show encrypted text

To my dear friend.

Dear ______,


Why show up, if you're just gonna stay distance yourself from the rest as much as possible? Why ignore people that try to talk to you, then complain that you feel rejected later on? No one's gonna have pity on you. I'm quite disgusted at what i'm seeing.

Attention seeking much?

No, don't get me wrong. I'm not angry, i still want you back with us. I'm just saying. Stop acting like this and you'll realise, it's all in your goddamn head.

Wake up dude, i'm sure you know better.


Sincerely, your friend.

Lepak

The new facebook does have it's pluses.

GG i just realised how screwed i am for lit tomorrow. Test until chapter 22. Read until chapter 2. Nice one.

Benji says he's studying miss maudie.

WHO THE F- IS MISS MAUDIE.

Good luck timo.

Lepak indeed.

I'll make it happen.

Let me fall this time, don't pick me up just before i hit the ground. I don't wanna be carried up to the top anymore. It's just not worth it. Cause after the fall, everything will be okay. So just let me drop. I'll be the one to get myself up on my feet again.

Fuck you Watch me. I'll make it happen, on my own.

Don't judge me till you see what i'm about to do.

Regret

Have you ever wondered, if you hadn't made one little decision, how your life would be different now? Could be anything, from deciding to stay back somewhere a little longer, to clicking that random link that caught your interest, or just saying that one line.

I have, and a few things came to mind. It's really pretty damn cool, for example, to think that if i hadn't decided to sit at that particular place on that day a few years ago, literally everything, from my character to my friends to my interests would be worlds apart right now.

Or how i, out of curiosity, clicked on a youtube link that lead me to that song that got me into metal. I really wonder how my playing, and well, musical style would be different if i never listened to metal.

And then there's that. I couldn't tell if i'd be much happier than i am now or not, cause sometimes i'd wish i made a different decision, but then at times i'm glad i did. But all i know is that things would be pretty damn different. For better or for worse, oh what i'd do to know. But i think i'd rather flatline than fluctuate, which means i wish that never really happened.

The past is fascinating, isn't it?

Melting pot.

Practicing a math at this stage is very, very discouraging. This isn't even the real o levels, but i'm already scared.

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I know that i shouldn't be smiling. There's no reason to be happy (I think). But every now and then, i like to tell myself a white lie. It makes the everything seem better, even if it's just for awhile.

Not so clueless after all, were you?

I didn't think so.

Don't tell me that face remained expressionless throughout. That's not what i see in my head.

Blast from the past.

Earlier this morning i was just looking through some friends' old blog archives. No josh, i was not copying you.

After returning to central with church people for the first time in really really long, and talking to ben about all the stuff we used to do in the past, i thought it would be cool to just visit blog archives and remember some stuff. (If there one thing i'm regretting now, it's deleting my old posts when i revived this blog.)

Yep, so this is the part where i DO copy josh. (apologies to all the people whose blogs i have ripped off from) (Which is really only ben) (For now)

Taken from: BEN'S BLOG

(July 7, 2008)

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME! haha im gonna name all of you ppl who put

a smile on my face =) starting with the guys

joel-retardness crapiness funiness
davidson- o.o same as joel
jun hao- loyal friend =)
moses-loyal in a pain way lol
timo-too tall,retardness makes me laugh

liz-smiley face,awesome friend
bella-crapiness all the things she has done make me think LOL
pong-smiley facey
zhi ting-super optimistic

haha if ur name not there i still love you (:
ok anyway SENTOSA WAS FUN!!! we thought maybe it might rain
but it just stayed cloudy and rain only came at like 7+
so anyway after church me,tim,joel,liz,and ting went to
carl's junior!!! their food is huge and you get free
refills!! so generous =) i shall go there more often =O
after that the girls went shopping and we waited
for davidson to arrive! when he arrived we headed to the
beautiful beach!!! we firstly shoved each other in the
water then later on went to burry joel in the sand lol
he was like just sleeping there the rest of us went for chicken
fight!! lol it was funny davidson/zhi ting VS me/liz
they won 1st round and we won 2nd =P lol then later on we
played monkey with the volleyball LOL
then we just lazed around in the water =) later tim had
to go so me and liz dug a hole in which later joel and zhiting
contributed =)*davidson helped tim find the bus stop*
i went in the hole and the buried half
my body in which was super hard to get out off and
it started raining to make everything more FUN! lol
we quickly went to wash up and went to kofu to eat dinner!
everyone was starving lol after that we headed for the skytrain
thingy back to vivo and took an mrt to pasir ris cause
we nice guys had to send the girls home lol
i got home at 11+ which would be my new rocord of getting
home late from sentosa. hill song concert still owns the 12+
reach home lolat first my parents were like why were u at green line??
then my mother was like orh send girls home ah? lol so no lecture
so tired (: and what a ncie long post this is! haha appreciate it!

(August 19, 2008)

i shall make a post of my frens :)

her name is not lizzie lee
but she really loves to climb a tree
up and down, up and down with her burger king crown
it reminds me of a clown
its hard to make her frown

ok that was stupid. lets try zhiting

her name is zhiting on her bicycle ring ring
pass joel wong he is singing a song
next she passes davidson lim he is slapping tim.
and furthur down is bella then she loves muscular men.
down the hill is pong she hates joel's song.

ok that was stupid.. lol not shakespear like at all (: but i think it was nice

K that made me laugh :)

Here's one of those old pictures too XD


Our sec2 selves. Somehow everyone still looks pretty much the same to me.

You know what? There's so much old shit i wanna put here, and it's not like i got lots of other stuff to post anyway. So i shall continue this blast from the past thing another time XD.

Yes, this is an advance apology (and a warning) to anyone who owns a blog with an archive and that i've known for pretty long. Which sadly, isn't alot of people. Which also means, sorry ben!

Your fault. Who asked you to have such a long archive anyway?

BRBLOL

"With his bowl haircut, nerd glasses, and unfashionable shorts, young singer-songwriter Vitas Lu (卢光仲） is the antithesis of idol pop, and that is part of what has endeared him to Taiwan music fans."

That's why i respect this guy. His success is purely cause of musical talent. And damn, he's good.

I once asked a friend quite long ago, "if (name of that persons favourite singer which i have forgetten) turned ugly, would you still listen to him?" I got a "WTH NO" for an answer. And that kinda shook me. How superficial can today's music industry get?

Well, this guy has proven otherwise.

Do you read me?

(This probably means alot more to me than it should.)

I'm sick of watching people come and go like it's nothing, while i'm stuck staring at this giant obstacle i built for myself. The pieces don't fit like they should, but i won't give up one for the other.

After all, it's not like i'm asking for much. I'm just asking for what everyone else has; am i not entitled to this right as well? All i want is that somehow, everything will turn out as it should be. Nothing more, nothing less.

Now tell me, is that too much to ask?

Mosh

THIS is what i call stage energy. Not many bands do it live like LoG. Can't believe i missed them on Apr 15 :(